My Health has been under manipulation by psychiatric doctors and nurses.
Since decades, for a while now, I have been institutionalized into the “Public” Psychiatric Health System of Portugal. It became the worst phase of my life, so far. And it still is.
It began with the psychiatric medics giving me very strong doses of medication, while giving me a diagnostic of having schizophrenia paranoid. Before this phase I have never heard, or had, any hearing hallucination, neither had any hallucination of any sort.
After the pain that the medication that I had to take (I was required or pressured to take it) was too much for me to take, I went discarding this strong medications prescribed to me. This is when I felt that something was wrong…
After many months, I started hearing an invisible voice, giving me orders to do nasty things. I never had any similar experience before, and I was unprepared for dealing with it. I ended up telling that I was having this experience. Which ended up with a new hospitalization of mine.
Afterwards, medics started saying and framing me as a dangerous person, without me had done anything criminal. Yet again, medics were saying things that, surprisingly, would happen afterwards…
I tried ditching the medication few more times. One of the times that I was without it, something more serious happened.
I was in the street, and the invisible voice was running very very strong. For a slip of a moment, I gave in, I couldn’t resist any more, and the voice convinced me to run towards a moving bus, something that I did. The bus did not kill me, and I convinced myself that I did not want to live anymore, and sat under the bus, saying for it to go forward.
The police came, and I was going to end up in the police station, but my cousin, who is a non-psychiatric doctor, appeared there and made me go to an ambulance instead.
Time after time, the psychiatric medics were sentencing me to things, that surprisingly, happened to me afterwards. No coincidence. The psychiatric medics were, and still are, conspiring against my liberty and my sanity (now pretty much destroyed). Every time I have to go to psychiatric medics, even nowadays when taking an injection, I have to tell all about my personal life to them, while either psychiatric nurses and psychiatric doctors, blatantly lie to me. It is not a relationship, it is a brute arm of the State taking away from me, more and more, of my liberty.
Now, some years afterwards, I have been taking an injection every month, and my penultimate injection (not the last one), almost brew up my heart, with a racing rhythm. While I also received, for the first time, spam (in Portuguese!) with a message Subject about heart attacks.
The last spam email that I received, before cutting with my email, was about a defibrillator… It appears that psychiatric medic’s abuse of my health won’t end up here…
